Honoring Your Spirit
I am often asked what made me choose the holistic field? Well, after contemplating that thought I can honestly say, I did not choose it, it chose me. As many young people I had the task of trying to find my niche in life. It was because of some very unsettling experiences I had to sit down with myself and ask MYSELF the question, "Who are you?" I knew my relationship to everyone else in my life but myself. Who was Frances. It had been so long it seemed since I asked myself that question. My likes, my desires, my favorite color. Who are you?
For a number of years following high school, I worked in several administrative positions which I thought in all of my wildest dreams you would not have caught me dead doing. This finally lead me to work in the not-for-profit field as a job readiness and career counselor. It was a rewarding job helping those trying to map out the possibilities and defying their fears of the unknown to barrel forth to some new career that they may have only dreamed about. Meanwhile, I had not truly found the thing that I felt my own heart was calling for.
Raising a family of five children, running a household, at first working part and then full time it; was very easy to get lost in the everyday grind. Along the 15 plus years of churning away at the non stop demands of innumerable responsibilities, I found myself experiencing a number of aliments that had no detectable medical root cause. Headaches, generalized body aches, fainting spell, lack of focus.
After one visit with my then wise old doctor reviewing all my negative test results, he began questioning me about "my life's existence" as I will put it . "How many children do you have are there any unusual stresses at home?" "Five children." I responded "and no there is nothing I would say unusual about home other than the normal activities that went along with raising a family." "How about your marriage. Is everything alright there?" he asked. " Everything is fine, no complains there." Then he asked me the next question and needless to say I was shocked at my own response. " What kind of work do you do? How's your job?" From out of no where I let out a sob of tears that was almost uncontrollable.
" Well" he proclaimed " there is your answer. Your suffering from acute stress." We talked a little bit and his words to me were this " Well, it sounds like your going to have to find another way to deal with the job or find another job." And with that he wrote me two prescriptions for basically tranquilizers. I could not believe what I was hearing. Me, I thought I had everything under control. I was the one everyone came to to fix something, stay a little longer, organize. Ah but that was part of the problem. It was not so much so the work, but who I worked with that was truly draining me. I did not realize how much, I was just holding on to many resentments and how purely exhausted I was. Fran was that person who kept my thoughts and feeling bottled up inside me, never expressing them. Just keeping her head to the grind stone and working through it all hoping tomorrow would bring a better result.
The body has a very unique way of letting you know when it's had enough. This can be expressed in many ways. Body pain such as head aches, neck and shoulder discomforts, sleeplessness, anxiety, gastronomic problems even weight gain or lose, hormonal issues just to name a few. Did you know that stress is one of the precursors of many diseases including heart disease, uterine fibroids. For suffers of fibromyalgia, stress can actual aggravate the condition.
Well, I changed some things in my life back then, but still had not made the leap into the life altering change that would have me truly questioning my existence on this earth. Sometime had pasted when that day finally arrived. It was one Saturday morning in Feb. 2004, when I made my bed, sat square in the middle of it and attempted to drown out all the head chatter that plagued my everyday existence and listen for the sound of SILENCE.
It was during that time I slowly began to find myself again. I wrote down what I discovered and took small steps to challenge myself along to accomplish even the smallest thing. All the while, God faithfully watching, sent his angles into my life to guide and direct me. They had been there all along. My mother, "Find you passion!", my husband " What do you want to do? Just go for it. I'm here." and so many more. When I really went deeper, I found that massage had been calling me from the age of 15 when I first purchased a book on my own about massage. I had never been around it, or had known anyone who had experienced it, but there is was every once in a while calling to me; but I did not answer until four years ago.
Life is a journey, we sometimes get caught up on the cross roads, and that's ok. The trick is to recognize that you have the power within you to change your destiny. With a little help from above and lot's of love and support all around me, I have been able to follow my spirit to the path that had been meant for me. My journey is far from over, there is much more to learn, the important thing is that I began the course. As my wonderful mother always says, "Everything in Divine Order."
If you have a similar tale. Will you share it with us? It may help someone else find their calling in this journey we call life.
Take time to honor who you are. Know that you are enough, learn to like who you are and let the road unwind from there.
Raising a family of five children, running a household, at first working part and then full time it; was very easy to get lost in the everyday grind. Along the 15 plus years of churning away at the non stop demands of innumerable responsibilities, I found myself experiencing a number of aliments that had no detectable medical root cause. Headaches, generalized body aches, fainting spell, lack of focus.
After one visit with my then wise old doctor reviewing all my negative test results, he began questioning me about "my life's existence" as I will put it . "How many children do you have are there any unusual stresses at home?" "Five children." I responded "and no there is nothing I would say unusual about home other than the normal activities that went along with raising a family." "How about your marriage. Is everything alright there?" he asked. " Everything is fine, no complains there." Then he asked me the next question and needless to say I was shocked at my own response. " What kind of work do you do? How's your job?" From out of no where I let out a sob of tears that was almost uncontrollable.
" Well" he proclaimed " there is your answer. Your suffering from acute stress." We talked a little bit and his words to me were this " Well, it sounds like your going to have to find another way to deal with the job or find another job." And with that he wrote me two prescriptions for basically tranquilizers. I could not believe what I was hearing. Me, I thought I had everything under control. I was the one everyone came to to fix something, stay a little longer, organize. Ah but that was part of the problem. It was not so much so the work, but who I worked with that was truly draining me. I did not realize how much, I was just holding on to many resentments and how purely exhausted I was. Fran was that person who kept my thoughts and feeling bottled up inside me, never expressing them. Just keeping her head to the grind stone and working through it all hoping tomorrow would bring a better result.
The body has a very unique way of letting you know when it's had enough. This can be expressed in many ways. Body pain such as head aches, neck and shoulder discomforts, sleeplessness, anxiety, gastronomic problems even weight gain or lose, hormonal issues just to name a few. Did you know that stress is one of the precursors of many diseases including heart disease, uterine fibroids. For suffers of fibromyalgia, stress can actual aggravate the condition.
Well, I changed some things in my life back then, but still had not made the leap into the life altering change that would have me truly questioning my existence on this earth. Sometime had pasted when that day finally arrived. It was one Saturday morning in Feb. 2004, when I made my bed, sat square in the middle of it and attempted to drown out all the head chatter that plagued my everyday existence and listen for the sound of SILENCE.
It was during that time I slowly began to find myself again. I wrote down what I discovered and took small steps to challenge myself along to accomplish even the smallest thing. All the while, God faithfully watching, sent his angles into my life to guide and direct me. They had been there all along. My mother, "Find you passion!", my husband " What do you want to do? Just go for it. I'm here." and so many more. When I really went deeper, I found that massage had been calling me from the age of 15 when I first purchased a book on my own about massage. I had never been around it, or had known anyone who had experienced it, but there is was every once in a while calling to me; but I did not answer until four years ago.
Life is a journey, we sometimes get caught up on the cross roads, and that's ok. The trick is to recognize that you have the power within you to change your destiny. With a little help from above and lot's of love and support all around me, I have been able to follow my spirit to the path that had been meant for me. My journey is far from over, there is much more to learn, the important thing is that I began the course. As my wonderful mother always says, "Everything in Divine Order."
If you have a similar tale. Will you share it with us? It may help someone else find their calling in this journey we call life.
Take time to honor who you are. Know that you are enough, learn to like who you are and let the road unwind from there.
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